Friday was my first appointment in Omaha (where I will have surgery). I had a Nutrition class and a blood draw.
First we will give a huge shout-out to the tech who drew my blood. She used the little needle without having to be told (huge win!) and she didn't necessarily dig but did some squishing around and was able to get the vein to work without having to stick me again. You could tell she was really good at her job. I don't even have a bruise. Anyone that knows me, knows that this is usually the worst part of any appointment because I have little tiny, rolly-poly veins.
There were no surprises from my blood work. That's good news. My blood sugars were a little high but I wasn't told to fast and had breakfast from BK on my way out of town so...again, no surprises there.
The Nutrition class was good. It was a lot of information. Some new, mostly reiterations of stuff I already know after having been through just about every weight loss program there is. There will be some changes to what I already know because of the size of my stomach following surgery but nothing super shocking because of all the research I have done.
Time for the brutally honest parts of the appointments. I spent a super unhealthy portion of the weekend stressed out and overly-anxiously obsessing about food. What I can eat now versus what I can eat then. Portions and how will I ever be able to enjoy or consume some of my favorite comfort foods (popcorn, chips and salsa, etc.). Protein shakes. Meal replacements. How I can get enough protein in the day. Big change - only 3 meals a day with very minimal snacking! Every program I've ever gone through says 6 small meals a day...post-op is only 3 meals a day.
I spent way too much time in my head obsessing about the two-week pre-op diet and the post-op diet. The two weeks prior to surgery require no solid food. One of the toughest days I have had was the 24 hours of no solid food prior to my colonoscopy...that will make this seem like a cakewalk.
My daughter said, "mom, you can do this if you really want this. We will support you no matter what you decide. We will help you however we can." I know they will. They can't do the mental part for me. I know why the prep is so long to get ready for surgery. It's processing time. It's preparing yourself mentally. It's making the decision that this is a lifelong journey.
Baby steps. Baby steps are how I will get there.
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